Scott is an awesome guy and I really respect him. He's my math partner and yesterday I found out that he doesn't drink, or smoke,he's a Lutheran and in the protestant choir. Overall he is a really cool guy and a great math partner. I hope there are more people like him in the world.
No clouds in the sky. Wish I could fly. Don't worry, I won't try.
School would be great if they made the weekend a few days longer, made classes a few hours shorter, cut out the homework, and had summer/winter break for 11 months a year.
Monday, September 30, 2002
Sunday, September 29, 2002
Do I overprotect myself? Today at Coach Hanlon's house some people were watching Hannibal in the basement. Last year for some stupid reason I bought that movie with out seeing it. A few months later I decided to see if it was any good. Five minutes into it I turned it off and gave the movie away to a friend. Watching it I experianced revolsion and a feeling of uncleanliness. Anyway, so they were watching it in the basement and part of me wanted to see it because I was curious, but I didn't. I did have to go down to the basement to get a different movie and saw a small part of it and part of me wanted to stay, but then the feeling came back and I went back upstairs. It's like I don't want to associate with anything dark or evil and I see that movie as evil. I don't know how to explain it. As Betsy once said " Silence of the Lambs had a purpose, but that movie only serves to glorify evil" or something like that. Okay, I guess this isn't a good example for me overprotecting myself because I don't think I should be watching those types of movies anyway.
I'm just arguing with myself for no reason. One part says that since I don't indulge in activities such as drinking, smoking, pointless relationships, that I am becoming socially inept and weird. Yet, as pointed out by many people many times, that is not the case because I find different ways to have fun with my friends.
As I told my parents last weekend, I feel like I'm supposed to live my life adhearing to high moral standards and be an example for people. I have no clue if this is actually the case, and if it is then why.
WARNING KATE! You are thinking too much. Stop at once or risk harm.
Recently I've noticed that I'm really hungry for news of the outside world. One of the things I really like to do is sit down and reading the whole NY Times.
I'm just arguing with myself for no reason. One part says that since I don't indulge in activities such as drinking, smoking, pointless relationships, that I am becoming socially inept and weird. Yet, as pointed out by many people many times, that is not the case because I find different ways to have fun with my friends.
As I told my parents last weekend, I feel like I'm supposed to live my life adhearing to high moral standards and be an example for people. I have no clue if this is actually the case, and if it is then why.
WARNING KATE! You are thinking too much. Stop at once or risk harm.
Recently I've noticed that I'm really hungry for news of the outside world. One of the things I really like to do is sit down and reading the whole NY Times.
Saturday, September 28, 2002
Golly gee wiz, I love Saturday morning physics tests at 7:30am. At least it's not at 6:35 any more like it was supposed to be. Right the majority of the yuk class is studying their butts off for this cheerfull occasion. If only we could have a few more of these. Oh wait, we do. At least the test gets us out of the Regimental run that everybody else has to do tomorrow morning at 5:20. After the much looked forward to test I have a parade and then a mandatory football game to go to. Supposedly the Army Team is "the pride and dream of every heart in grey." I'm sure they would be if they start winning a game sometime. Having to stay and watch the football team mess up and lose is pretty demoralizing. The Comm made it mandatory for everyone to go to the games and stay to the end after the Alma Mater is sung. If only it was a Michigan game.
Today at crew practice we did a three mile head race from Con Hook to Duck Island. He had us in two eights racing against each other. My boat rowed really well together and I felt a lot better rowing than I have in a long time. When Coach Hall said that I was in an eight today instead of the quad I was kinda sad and dreading the race, but even though I pulled 100% the whole time I wasn't dying half-way through the race like I expected I would. It was great. On Sunday I have to row a 2k on the erg with Annah because I didn't row one yesterday because of the APFT.
Now it's time to go back to studying physics. I'm trying to decided whether to make some popcorn or not. hmmm?
Today at crew practice we did a three mile head race from Con Hook to Duck Island. He had us in two eights racing against each other. My boat rowed really well together and I felt a lot better rowing than I have in a long time. When Coach Hall said that I was in an eight today instead of the quad I was kinda sad and dreading the race, but even though I pulled 100% the whole time I wasn't dying half-way through the race like I expected I would. It was great. On Sunday I have to row a 2k on the erg with Annah because I didn't row one yesterday because of the APFT.
Now it's time to go back to studying physics. I'm trying to decided whether to make some popcorn or not. hmmm?
Friday, September 27, 2002
YAY!!!! The APFT is done:) I did 35 push-ups in 2 min, 69 sit-ups in 2 min, and a 16:46 min on the 2-mile run. Usually I get around 40-45 push-ups, but around 6 were not counted and I also had to go down a tad bit lower than I usually do. The sit-ups was an all-time best and the run was my second best one, but my best offically counted one. Overall I raised my score by 1 point from my last APFT for a new offical high. Each APFT I'm improving a little. I'm so glad it's over.
Thursday, September 26, 2002
It's sprinkeling outside and the weather is definetly cooler than it was a few days ago. I'm really nervous about the APFT, as always. At practice this afternoon we're supposed to do a 2k, but I don't really care about that at the moment. If you get a bad time on one 2k you don't get kicked off them team. Eddie is coming over and then we're going down the Amaka's room to meet up with her and Keegan before we all go down together to take the APFT. Right now I can't wait for the day that I never have to do PT again, but I have a feeling that day won't come for a long time, if ever. I can just see it now being at a nursing home when I'm 90 years old and them waking us all up at 5am to go for a nursing home run/walk/hobble/push. I wonder if they have PT tests in Heaven? I sure hope not.
24 hours from now I'll be done with the APFT. Tomorrow I'm going down around 1:40pm to take it. I'm nervous. What if they cut a lot of push-up's and I don't get 25, or 19? The past few times I've gotten in the 40's, but I've been hearing of them cutting 5-20 push-ups a person. I'm also nervous about the sit-ups. The past few weeks I've been running, but I'm still scared about it. I want to do well, or at least make sure I'm not marginal. Augh! Wish me luck.
My mind has been tainted. I feel dirty. Okay, not really, but I didn't need to see all of that. Of course, as Annah said "she does need to grow up sometime," but I doubt that's the way:) I do just fine growing up on my own. Maybe I am a little socially stunted and all, but at least I didn't have 2 kids this summer to raise or move into the gehtto and spend tons of money on tatoo's last year like my sisters did. Actually, the kids were baby goats that Betsy helped raise from the petting farm and they were really cute even though I only saw pictures of them. The tattoo's were from Heidi's cancer treatment. Before she had cancer she lived in Detroit working for a Christian school. My only claim to fame is that my parents decided to kick me out of the house and send me to a military school. Oh wait, this was all my choice. I can't blame them at all, but I can make it sound like I have such a troubled family life :)
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
This week not as busy as last week was, but there still are stresses such as the APFT and physics WPR plus a few projects.
This whole not liking a guy right now thing is great most of the time. My emotions are a lot more level, but occasionally I still wish I liked someone and that he liked me back. I'll just have to wait for that person to come along. I wonder who it is? What if there is no one and I grow up to be a single old women with 10 cats? I don't even like cats that much. Dogs are much better in my opinion. Kittens are okay, but eventually they grow up. I don't want to be all alone in a nursing home when I'm old with no family to visit me. Okay, I'm scaring myself again. Time to stop. Things will all work out somehow and Ill be happy in the end. No pain no gain. I guess cats are okay...
Time for class. I heard that today we're watching a movie. yay!
This whole not liking a guy right now thing is great most of the time. My emotions are a lot more level, but occasionally I still wish I liked someone and that he liked me back. I'll just have to wait for that person to come along. I wonder who it is? What if there is no one and I grow up to be a single old women with 10 cats? I don't even like cats that much. Dogs are much better in my opinion. Kittens are okay, but eventually they grow up. I don't want to be all alone in a nursing home when I'm old with no family to visit me. Okay, I'm scaring myself again. Time to stop. Things will all work out somehow and Ill be happy in the end. No pain no gain. I guess cats are okay...
Time for class. I heard that today we're watching a movie. yay!
Today the Econ lab convinced me that I need to start budgeting my money. Now I need to figure out where to start.
My company was missing around 100 people at lunch formation today. It was at 11:55 instead of 12:05, but they forgot to tell us. I'm happy to say that my platoon had the most people at the formation.
Formation was early because Prince Andrew and people (meaning a bunch of stars) joined us for lunch. He gave a 10 min speech where he read a message the Queen sent to us, and then talked a little on his own. Sad to say, but most of us zoned out of all of it because the speech was full of weird analogies about how Britain and the US are even stronger allies since 9-11 and something about a town in texas and a town in England. It was cool that he was here, but most of the girl's I've talked to were hoping that the thing the Queen sent was Prince William and not a speech. He didn't make an appearance at lunch.
Today was the day of interupted sleep. This morning someone decided to call my phone 3 times at 5:30 in the morning. I woke up just as Tara got up to pick up the phone, which proccedded to only have a dial tone. Today at practice Abby was telling us how she was taking a nap when her TAC decided to knock twice on her door and wake her up. She awoke to find that her TAC was talking to two Venezualen Generals outside her room and wanted to show them it. She was glad that by the time she got around to opening the door they were already walking away down the hall.
Mark is getting on me for being quiet. He sees me in the hall and yells "hi Kate" and tells me how he was just talking to some people in the company about how quiet I am and that nobody knows me. Perhaps I should make more of an effort to get to know the cows and firsties. He's also convinced that there is no possible way that my roommates and I have not had an argument yet. Our personalities are so different that he can't understand how we get along. Tara is really loud, I'm really quiet, and Alyson is in the middle. I think it works out perfect. I'll get louder as the year goes on and I get to know everybody more.
My company was missing around 100 people at lunch formation today. It was at 11:55 instead of 12:05, but they forgot to tell us. I'm happy to say that my platoon had the most people at the formation.
Formation was early because Prince Andrew and people (meaning a bunch of stars) joined us for lunch. He gave a 10 min speech where he read a message the Queen sent to us, and then talked a little on his own. Sad to say, but most of us zoned out of all of it because the speech was full of weird analogies about how Britain and the US are even stronger allies since 9-11 and something about a town in texas and a town in England. It was cool that he was here, but most of the girl's I've talked to were hoping that the thing the Queen sent was Prince William and not a speech. He didn't make an appearance at lunch.
Today was the day of interupted sleep. This morning someone decided to call my phone 3 times at 5:30 in the morning. I woke up just as Tara got up to pick up the phone, which proccedded to only have a dial tone. Today at practice Abby was telling us how she was taking a nap when her TAC decided to knock twice on her door and wake her up. She awoke to find that her TAC was talking to two Venezualen Generals outside her room and wanted to show them it. She was glad that by the time she got around to opening the door they were already walking away down the hall.
Mark is getting on me for being quiet. He sees me in the hall and yells "hi Kate" and tells me how he was just talking to some people in the company about how quiet I am and that nobody knows me. Perhaps I should make more of an effort to get to know the cows and firsties. He's also convinced that there is no possible way that my roommates and I have not had an argument yet. Our personalities are so different that he can't understand how we get along. Tara is really loud, I'm really quiet, and Alyson is in the middle. I think it works out perfect. I'll get louder as the year goes on and I get to know everybody more.
Tuesday, September 24, 2002
Today on the way to her last class right before lunch my roommate, Tara, ran into Prince William in Thayer Hall. I'm not sure if she actually ran into him, but that's what she said. Who knows. He's at West Point right now and tomorrow he's going to be talking to my friend Shannon's EE class. I have no idea why they want him to speak to an EE class, but I'm not the one who makes these decisions. What actually makes more sense is that a lot of people are saying the Duke of York is here also. That is Prince Andrew and perhaps he's the one who's actually supposed to be talking to the class. The question still remains, Why?
Being royal must really be a pain sometimes, or most of the time. Every action you do is watched and you're hounded by the media all the time. Oh wait, that's the same as life here. I have a new found apprection of how much it royaly sucks, and I don't have it hardly as bad as he does. Okay, my life and his life don't really compare, but I'm just trying to say that I'm getting sick of being watched every moment and feeling like I live in a fish bowl and I only experiance a tiny bit of what he must experiance every day.
New subject. I have an APFT this week and am really scared about it. People tell me that I'm in shape, but I don't know if I believe them. Augh! We'll see how this goes.
The other day I was in the C-store and I went to the second floor and saw General Brooks up there. He was talking to someone and saying "you don't want to where brown leather shoes with black pants because they don't go together." The person replied "It's like my mamma always used to say..." and then I walked out of earshot to look at the cd's. A few moments later I saw them pass by to go look at some clothes and saw that it was the Frist Captain with him. I never pictured the a cadet and a General shopping together, no matter what the cadet's rank. It was pretty funny and for the rest of the day I had a pretty good laugh over the Commedant telling Ricardo Turner what to buy.
This evening I went over to LTC Surdu's house and had dinner with him and his family along with two other cadets he sponsor's. After dinner we all played UNO and I ended up winning the first 3 games. It was a lot of fun. Since LTC Surdu is taking command and a new post at the end of this year LTC Phillips, my DAC, offered to sponsor me. It's pretty cool.
I hated saying goodbye to my parents yesterday afternoon. Last year I didn't want them to leave because I dreaded returning to the rigors of academy life, but this year I hate to see them leave because I truely miss them and love spending time with them. I'll see them again, along with my sisters and friends at Thanksgiving. Only 2 more months.
Being royal must really be a pain sometimes, or most of the time. Every action you do is watched and you're hounded by the media all the time. Oh wait, that's the same as life here. I have a new found apprection of how much it royaly sucks, and I don't have it hardly as bad as he does. Okay, my life and his life don't really compare, but I'm just trying to say that I'm getting sick of being watched every moment and feeling like I live in a fish bowl and I only experiance a tiny bit of what he must experiance every day.
New subject. I have an APFT this week and am really scared about it. People tell me that I'm in shape, but I don't know if I believe them. Augh! We'll see how this goes.
The other day I was in the C-store and I went to the second floor and saw General Brooks up there. He was talking to someone and saying "you don't want to where brown leather shoes with black pants because they don't go together." The person replied "It's like my mamma always used to say..." and then I walked out of earshot to look at the cd's. A few moments later I saw them pass by to go look at some clothes and saw that it was the Frist Captain with him. I never pictured the a cadet and a General shopping together, no matter what the cadet's rank. It was pretty funny and for the rest of the day I had a pretty good laugh over the Commedant telling Ricardo Turner what to buy.
This evening I went over to LTC Surdu's house and had dinner with him and his family along with two other cadets he sponsor's. After dinner we all played UNO and I ended up winning the first 3 games. It was a lot of fun. Since LTC Surdu is taking command and a new post at the end of this year LTC Phillips, my DAC, offered to sponsor me. It's pretty cool.
I hated saying goodbye to my parents yesterday afternoon. Last year I didn't want them to leave because I dreaded returning to the rigors of academy life, but this year I hate to see them leave because I truely miss them and love spending time with them. I'll see them again, along with my sisters and friends at Thanksgiving. Only 2 more months.
Sunday, September 22, 2002
Tonight my parents and I went and saw Apollo 13 at the IMAX theater in the palasadies mall. One the way back I fell asleep and woke up just as we got back to West Point. When I got up to the company area there was a group of yuk guys gathered right outside the orderly room and they started talking to me. Since I was still half asleep they were convinced that I was drunk or had at least had a few drinks. It took me a few minutes and a little waking up to get them to belive that I was not drunk, did not drink at all, and actually never have or will drink until I'm at least 21. One of them then proceeded to tell me that next weekend I'm going with him to a tailgate where there's a lot of drinking. I laughed and said no. They all probably think that I'm even weirder now, but at the moment I don't really care.
Saturday, September 21, 2002
Today was a good day. I had the first three hours off and managed to take a nap, but didn't sleep very well because I'm not used to taking naps anymore and was really anxious that I was missing a class or something.
Today in philosophy I started thinking about a different dimension. It's the spiritual dimendision. All around us there is a war going on, but we can't see it except for a in a few occasions that God opens our eyes.
Today in philosophy I started thinking about a different dimension. It's the spiritual dimendision. All around us there is a war going on, but we can't see it except for a in a few occasions that God opens our eyes.
Friday, September 20, 2002
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday dear Mommy
Happy Birthday to you.
Yay! I get to see my parents today :) They are coming up for the Michigan Parents Club tailgate after the football game tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be able to spend some time with them tonight since it is my Mom's birthday.
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday dear Mommy
Happy Birthday to you.
Yay! I get to see my parents today :) They are coming up for the Michigan Parents Club tailgate after the football game tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be able to spend some time with them tonight since it is my Mom's birthday.
I think that this past week was the busiest week that I've ever had. What made it a little more bearable was that I've decided not to do the early morning practice everyday. I can't handle getting up at 5:10 every day and only getting 5-5 1/2 hours of sleep. My body requiers 6. Every other day I'm gonna sleep in until 6am and do the afternoon practice right before the real practice. It feels great knowing that I can sleep in until 6. There was a dramatic difference in my ability to function and stay awake in class.
The outlook for this season in crew is good. Coach Hall put Beth, Molly, Abbie, and I together in a boat because we are the smallest people on the team and our personalities also mesh well. This season we'll row both a four and a quad. I'd never sculled before, but Wednesday he had us go out in the quad. It was really awesome and I felt like I was getting much more of a workout. It started out pretty shaky because it was something new for both Molly and I and Abbie had only one day of experiance, but by the end of practice we had improved a ton.
The outlook for this season in crew is good. Coach Hall put Beth, Molly, Abbie, and I together in a boat because we are the smallest people on the team and our personalities also mesh well. This season we'll row both a four and a quad. I'd never sculled before, but Wednesday he had us go out in the quad. It was really awesome and I felt like I was getting much more of a workout. It started out pretty shaky because it was something new for both Molly and I and Abbie had only one day of experiance, but by the end of practice we had improved a ton.
Wednesday, September 18, 2002
My day:
5:10am wake up
5:10-5:25 brush teeth, bathroom, contacts, shoes, ect.
5:25 go down to Mac Statue to meet Laura and Margret
5:30-6:05 run to Lee Gate and back (3-4 miles)
6:05-6:40 shower, strip bed, dress, put books away, send out laundry
6:40 go down to breakfast formation
6:40-7:18 breakfast formation/breakfast
7:18-7:25 go back up to 6th floor to room,get books, brush teeth
7:25-7:35 head to class
7:35-8:30 Physics
8:30-8:40 walk to LTC Phillips office
8:40-9:35 Offically declare CS as my major and organize courses up through Firstie year
9:35-9:45 walk to Math class
9:45-10:40 Math class. Major Farmer tells me that since I'm the only person who did all of the suggested problems I can leave if I want to, but I stick around because I didn't understand all of the concepts on the board sheet.
10:40-10:50 go from 3rd floor of Thayer to 4th floor of Bartlett Hall
10:50-11:43 Wellness class.
11:43-11:50 rush back to room, drop off book bag, change shoes,
11:50-12:27pm Lunch Formation, Dean's awards, Lunch
12:27-12:35 rush back to room, get new books and bookbag,
12:35-12:45 head to Robinson Aud.
12:45-1:20 DMI Introduction to branches briefing
1:20-1:35 bathroom, quick stop in Thayer bookstore
1:35-1:50 walk to CPT Allmond's office
1:50-2:45 Initial counseling with CPT Allmond, assigned 2-3 page paper on personal couarge due Monday.
2:45-2:55 walk to Economics
2:55-3:50 Economics
3:50-4:07 go back up to room, drop off books, change for practice, bathroom,
4:07-4:15 walk to practice
4:15-6:20 practice
6:20-6:30 drop crew bag off in Alex's room, head to dinner
6:30-6:45 dinner
6:45-7:10 come back to room, find Tara in a lot of pain, search for someone in chain of command, talk to Steph on IM
7:10-7:20 shower, get dressed
7:20- present type this
Still to come- make bed, couseling with Sabia, homework, prepare physics briefing, shine brass, clean rifle, and get ready for In ranks layout tomorrow.
It's been a very busy day and running on 5 hours of sleep did not help one bit. I've decided that I'm not going to get up for the morning practice tomorrow and instead do it at 3:30pm. Today I've had the headache that comes when you're really exhausted and need sleep. At least it's almost over and I can stay in my room and pretend to relax.
5:10am wake up
5:10-5:25 brush teeth, bathroom, contacts, shoes, ect.
5:25 go down to Mac Statue to meet Laura and Margret
5:30-6:05 run to Lee Gate and back (3-4 miles)
6:05-6:40 shower, strip bed, dress, put books away, send out laundry
6:40 go down to breakfast formation
6:40-7:18 breakfast formation/breakfast
7:18-7:25 go back up to 6th floor to room,get books, brush teeth
7:25-7:35 head to class
7:35-8:30 Physics
8:30-8:40 walk to LTC Phillips office
8:40-9:35 Offically declare CS as my major and organize courses up through Firstie year
9:35-9:45 walk to Math class
9:45-10:40 Math class. Major Farmer tells me that since I'm the only person who did all of the suggested problems I can leave if I want to, but I stick around because I didn't understand all of the concepts on the board sheet.
10:40-10:50 go from 3rd floor of Thayer to 4th floor of Bartlett Hall
10:50-11:43 Wellness class.
11:43-11:50 rush back to room, drop off book bag, change shoes,
11:50-12:27pm Lunch Formation, Dean's awards, Lunch
12:27-12:35 rush back to room, get new books and bookbag,
12:35-12:45 head to Robinson Aud.
12:45-1:20 DMI Introduction to branches briefing
1:20-1:35 bathroom, quick stop in Thayer bookstore
1:35-1:50 walk to CPT Allmond's office
1:50-2:45 Initial counseling with CPT Allmond, assigned 2-3 page paper on personal couarge due Monday.
2:45-2:55 walk to Economics
2:55-3:50 Economics
3:50-4:07 go back up to room, drop off books, change for practice, bathroom,
4:07-4:15 walk to practice
4:15-6:20 practice
6:20-6:30 drop crew bag off in Alex's room, head to dinner
6:30-6:45 dinner
6:45-7:10 come back to room, find Tara in a lot of pain, search for someone in chain of command, talk to Steph on IM
7:10-7:20 shower, get dressed
7:20- present type this
Still to come- make bed, couseling with Sabia, homework, prepare physics briefing, shine brass, clean rifle, and get ready for In ranks layout tomorrow.
It's been a very busy day and running on 5 hours of sleep did not help one bit. I've decided that I'm not going to get up for the morning practice tomorrow and instead do it at 3:30pm. Today I've had the headache that comes when you're really exhausted and need sleep. At least it's almost over and I can stay in my room and pretend to relax.
Monday, September 16, 2002
Attention Male Bachelors: Male cadets needed to entertain some lovely ladies as they present themselves to high society. All classes are eligible. Ballroom Dancing skills are not required (but HIGHLY recommended). Here is your chance to mingle in High Society and represent West Point as the premiere institution for producing Gentlemen that any mother-in-law would be proud of. The Debutante Ball will be held over Thanksgiving break in Washington DC.
I never expected to see that in the Brigade Daily Notes, but there it was today. wow.
I never expected to see that in the Brigade Daily Notes, but there it was today. wow.
Friday, September 13, 2002
In less then an hour I'm going to go meet with LTC Surdu and then LTC Phillips and probably make my choice about majoring in CS. All of my friends are telling me I'm crazy for wanting to major in it and that I'll hate it, but that's also what everyone said about me going to West Point and I I love it here.
I can't bring myself to say hi to Erich and if I see him I always look away and I'm not sure why. A few days ago I really needed help in physics because there was a big writ the next day and I didn't understand a bunch of stuff so I IM'd and asked him for help since I've heard he does really well in that class. He said he had a lot of hw to do but might help after that. He never did and so I ended up going to Reggie as usual and we kinda guessed our way through it together. I guess I didn't need Erich's help after all because I got a 90/100 on the writ.
I can't bring myself to say hi to Erich and if I see him I always look away and I'm not sure why. A few days ago I really needed help in physics because there was a big writ the next day and I didn't understand a bunch of stuff so I IM'd and asked him for help since I've heard he does really well in that class. He said he had a lot of hw to do but might help after that. He never did and so I ended up going to Reggie as usual and we kinda guessed our way through it together. I guess I didn't need Erich's help after all because I got a 90/100 on the writ.
This weekend I'm going to the Jersey shore for the Lutheran Retreat. I almost didn't get to go, but at the last minute my RnT got approved. We leave tomorrow after classes and get back around 3 on Sunday. I hope that I can sleep and relax a lot this weekend.
Time for me to go beddie-bye. It's been a long Thayer week, especially the past two days.
Time for me to go beddie-bye. It's been a long Thayer week, especially the past two days.
Thursday, September 12, 2002
The worst part of getting up in the morning is making yourself actually open your eyes and sit up. I'm averaging 5 hours of sleep and am not use to it yet. The really sucky days are the ones where I only get 4 hours of sleep. Sleeping in seems like a distant dream.
Tomorrow I'm meeting with LTC Phillips to decide if I want to major in CS. When I say that that's what I'm thinking about people cringe. I don't know if it's because they hated the CS class last year or if it really is such a hard department. Probably a little of both. For a moment I thought of majoring in Nuclear Physics because the name sounds cool, but then I remembered that I don't really like physics.
Tired, want sleep, only 13-14 more hours, clac, a philosophy wpr, econ lab, practice, mandatory dinner, then homework, and I can go to bed again.
Tomorrow I'm meeting with LTC Phillips to decide if I want to major in CS. When I say that that's what I'm thinking about people cringe. I don't know if it's because they hated the CS class last year or if it really is such a hard department. Probably a little of both. For a moment I thought of majoring in Nuclear Physics because the name sounds cool, but then I remembered that I don't really like physics.
Tired, want sleep, only 13-14 more hours, clac, a philosophy wpr, econ lab, practice, mandatory dinner, then homework, and I can go to bed again.
Wednesday, September 11, 2002
Matt is awesome. He keeps me sane a lot of the time. If I call him and am having a bad day, by the time I get off the phone everything seems better and less significant. There should be more people out there like him.
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Tuesday, September 10, 2002
The worst guilt that I have is that both my actions and my inaction ended up causing my friend to go through one of the hardest things she's ever had to go through. I wish I could go back and change everything that happened. Why did I have to be in shock at that moment? Maybe I have something akin to survivers guilt and what will soon happen will help ease that because I'll suffer some of consequences. I don't know what's going to happen to me, but I know that I've dissapointed myself and my TAC. I have no one to blame but myself because although I could not control the actions of my friend, I could control my own actions and I think that I choose the wrong ones. I have to live with this for the rest of my life, but at least I know that I've learned something from it. It is possible for good to come out of the situation if you look hard enough.
Monday, September 09, 2002
Two a day practices started today and I'm hurting. I got up at 5:10am this morning so I could get down to the boat house by 5:30. We then lifted weights and stuff untill 6 and then came back, took showers, and got ready for breakfast. Last night I got to bed around 1am because I was finishing up my Wellness nutrition project and realized that I hadn't done my physics.
It all would have gotten done much sooner if I hadn't paid attention to Annah when she came in my room to drop of my math book that she had borrowed. What was supposed to be a 10-20 min trip with her down to the mess hall and then to Grant hall to get dinner ended up being me eating mac and cheese in her room with Tia and Kristen. After I ate to be funny I hiked up my shorts like steve erkle and suddenly they were daring my to walk across central area, touch Pershing Barracks, and come back with them like that. After a 1/2 hour of them daring me to do it and getting the bet up to $20 I finally decided to go for it. As I have said before, don't be afraid to make a fool of yourself once in awhile. While I was walking across the area my squad leader happend to walk right by me with a friend and give me a really odd look. The guys who were playing basketball were laughing so hard that some of them rolled on the ground, Annah took pictures from her window, and also IM'd Beth and told her to look out her window. When I got back I said it was worth $25 now becase earlier Tia had bet me $5 that no one would even notice and they definetly had noticed. After me chasing her around the room a bit and a little shouting I realized that there was still half of the blueberry cheesecake left and asked if anyone else wanted anymore of it. Needless to say, it ended up in Tia's face and hair along with splattering the windows, walls, and floor. It was hilarious. She just stood there for a moment and then started shouting about how I wasn't getting any money now. All of this was done very good naturedly and we were all having a good time shouting at each other. One of Annah's roommates asked if we were drunk. The story spread very quickly throughout the crew team and so far all but one of my teammates think that I should still get the $20 because what I did was far more humilitating.
I wonder what my proffesors would do if I did this?
It all would have gotten done much sooner if I hadn't paid attention to Annah when she came in my room to drop of my math book that she had borrowed. What was supposed to be a 10-20 min trip with her down to the mess hall and then to Grant hall to get dinner ended up being me eating mac and cheese in her room with Tia and Kristen. After I ate to be funny I hiked up my shorts like steve erkle and suddenly they were daring my to walk across central area, touch Pershing Barracks, and come back with them like that. After a 1/2 hour of them daring me to do it and getting the bet up to $20 I finally decided to go for it. As I have said before, don't be afraid to make a fool of yourself once in awhile. While I was walking across the area my squad leader happend to walk right by me with a friend and give me a really odd look. The guys who were playing basketball were laughing so hard that some of them rolled on the ground, Annah took pictures from her window, and also IM'd Beth and told her to look out her window. When I got back I said it was worth $25 now becase earlier Tia had bet me $5 that no one would even notice and they definetly had noticed. After me chasing her around the room a bit and a little shouting I realized that there was still half of the blueberry cheesecake left and asked if anyone else wanted anymore of it. Needless to say, it ended up in Tia's face and hair along with splattering the windows, walls, and floor. It was hilarious. She just stood there for a moment and then started shouting about how I wasn't getting any money now. All of this was done very good naturedly and we were all having a good time shouting at each other. One of Annah's roommates asked if we were drunk. The story spread very quickly throughout the crew team and so far all but one of my teammates think that I should still get the $20 because what I did was far more humilitating.
I wonder what my proffesors would do if I did this?
Sunday, September 08, 2002
Saturday, September 07, 2002
What are my roommates and I doing up at 1:39am on a Friday night? You'd probably guess partying, right? I mean, hey, we are college students and it's the weekend so 1:39am is actually not that late. Well I've got news for you buster. We've decided, for fun or course, to forgo the usual late night partying that goes on here and instead stay up late and have a great time cleaning. I mean really, what is more fun than sitting outside in the hall shining my hat brass at 1am while I wait for my floor to dry after Tara moped it? This is of course so much fun that the people in the rooms around us decided to give it a try too. They must be having a great time also because we're all still up and cleaning. You should try it sometime. The way to have the most fun is to make sure that you and your roommate(s) have the same iteams in your drawers and that they're folded and placed exactly the same. Hangers need to be spaced out evenly throughout the closet and all buttons must be buttoned, except on shirts because then it's only the top button. Desk drawers and overheads should be neat and orderly. The floor has to be swept and moped. Swiffering it many times helps a lot also. Every single surface must be dusted. That includes desks, drawers, behind drawers, behind desk, bed, bed springs, door knob, door bolt, bookshelf, chair, hats, computer, phone, camera, picture frame, ect. Books on the bookshelf must be in height order and pushed to the back with the tallest on the far left. Windows and mirrors must be clean and free of any smears or smudges. Newspaper works best for cleaning them. Shoes and boots should be shined to glass and aligned under the bed with the toes right at the edge of the bed. Aligning them with a broomstick works the best. Laundry bags can only be up the 1/3 full and no fair hiding anything in there. If you have a rifle make sure that it's clean and that the strap is loose. Beds should be made as tight as humanly possible and should of course all look the same. Nothing can hang on the walls. The floor and the walls must be free of smudges and spots. Believe me, this is really fun. Although I love doing it all myself I am willing to give someone else a chance to experiance the fun next time I decide to forgo my usual weekend partying for this.
Just to clarify, my usual weekend partying consistes of watching a dvd and being in bed around 12. Yes, life here is a blast.
Just to clarify, my usual weekend partying consistes of watching a dvd and being in bed around 12. Yes, life here is a blast.
I ate too much at the crew BBQ, but it was really good food. There were a lot of salads which were awesome, fresh fruit and veggies, corn mash stuff that was really good and filling, hot dogs and hamburgers, cookies and cake, and other good stuff. I filled up on the salad, fruit and veggies and then dug into half a hamburger, 4 cookies, and a slice of cake. My stomach feels like it's going to explode.
Tonight my roommates and I have to clean for SAMI tomorrow morning, but right now I'm really not in the mood to clean. We already have most of our clothing drawers in BAG, but we still have to arrange our medicine cabinets, desk drawers, overheads, dust, sweep, windex, and aliagn hangers and button/unbutton clothes hanging up and make sure they're in the proper order. What I really want to do is sit back and watch a movie with some friends, but since I don't think I'll be able to do that I'll probably just have a dvd playing on my computer while I clean.
The flood lights just turned on outside. The sky is a dark, clear blue color that lightens as you reach the horizon. There are a few pale whitish-pink wisps of clouds in the sky that provide a nice contrast to the blue evening sky. The black of the tree-line has the most stunning effect against the light blue of the horizon.
I still can't spell very well, my grammer is atroucious, but I've chosen to ignore those things while writing this. If I concentrated on being techniclly proficient it would detract tremendously from my ability to write and vent. I have this as a way to get my thoughts out and possibly even share them with anyone who cares to read. I am a rather quiet person in person so this gives my friends and others a chance to see a side of me that they normally would not get to view. I don't care who reads this, or even if no one reads it. I'm writing for me. It sounds rather selfish actually, but I've found it to be very helpful. Before last year I was never much of a person to keep a journal. Beast showed me that letter writing can be very helpful and is good way to relieve stress and relax. Every night I stayed up almost an hour after taps writing letters to my family and friends. That stopped once the school year started and the rigors of academics started. Then in February Matt introduced me to Blogger. I started out writing a soap opera type blog along with my roommates, but that proved to be too time consuming and once my mom found out about it she asked me to stop because she said it was too risky. A little later I started this blog and have written in it ever since then. Hopefully it will still be around in some form or fashion years from now so I can look back and read about what my life was like. This is who I am. The good and the bad. Not everything is writtten in here, but a lot is written.
Tonight my roommates and I have to clean for SAMI tomorrow morning, but right now I'm really not in the mood to clean. We already have most of our clothing drawers in BAG, but we still have to arrange our medicine cabinets, desk drawers, overheads, dust, sweep, windex, and aliagn hangers and button/unbutton clothes hanging up and make sure they're in the proper order. What I really want to do is sit back and watch a movie with some friends, but since I don't think I'll be able to do that I'll probably just have a dvd playing on my computer while I clean.
The flood lights just turned on outside. The sky is a dark, clear blue color that lightens as you reach the horizon. There are a few pale whitish-pink wisps of clouds in the sky that provide a nice contrast to the blue evening sky. The black of the tree-line has the most stunning effect against the light blue of the horizon.
I still can't spell very well, my grammer is atroucious, but I've chosen to ignore those things while writing this. If I concentrated on being techniclly proficient it would detract tremendously from my ability to write and vent. I have this as a way to get my thoughts out and possibly even share them with anyone who cares to read. I am a rather quiet person in person so this gives my friends and others a chance to see a side of me that they normally would not get to view. I don't care who reads this, or even if no one reads it. I'm writing for me. It sounds rather selfish actually, but I've found it to be very helpful. Before last year I was never much of a person to keep a journal. Beast showed me that letter writing can be very helpful and is good way to relieve stress and relax. Every night I stayed up almost an hour after taps writing letters to my family and friends. That stopped once the school year started and the rigors of academics started. Then in February Matt introduced me to Blogger. I started out writing a soap opera type blog along with my roommates, but that proved to be too time consuming and once my mom found out about it she asked me to stop because she said it was too risky. A little later I started this blog and have written in it ever since then. Hopefully it will still be around in some form or fashion years from now so I can look back and read about what my life was like. This is who I am. The good and the bad. Not everything is writtten in here, but a lot is written.
Friday, September 06, 2002
Friday afternoons without class are the best. After lunch I can come back to my room, read the New York Times all the way through, watch CNN, and relax. It's great to find out what's going on in the world because a lot of times I have no clue.
Happy Rosh Hashanah.
Today in philosophy Dr. Tramel had us look at two valid arguments proving the existance of God and also saying that there is no God. Although the proofs showed they were technically both valid I didn't really like either of them. The assumptions made were rather broad and opinionated it seemed.
As we were doing that I started to think about something that seemed hard to convice. The fact that God has no beginning. He's always been there. It was much easier to compreheand the fact that He'll always be there, but for something to have no beginning is almost unimaginable. No, I'm not saying that I doubt the fact that God had no beginning because I don't doubt it. I just find it very hard to compreheand because everything I know of has had a beginning. My problem is that I'm trying to fit God into linear terms and find it impossible. God is not a number line, but that's the closest thing that I can think of to logically compreahend the matter. He goes from negative infinitey to positive infinity. Right now it takes faith for me to believe this and will probably always be this way. I just find it cool to think about.
Happy Rosh Hashanah.
Today in philosophy Dr. Tramel had us look at two valid arguments proving the existance of God and also saying that there is no God. Although the proofs showed they were technically both valid I didn't really like either of them. The assumptions made were rather broad and opinionated it seemed.
As we were doing that I started to think about something that seemed hard to convice. The fact that God has no beginning. He's always been there. It was much easier to compreheand the fact that He'll always be there, but for something to have no beginning is almost unimaginable. No, I'm not saying that I doubt the fact that God had no beginning because I don't doubt it. I just find it very hard to compreheand because everything I know of has had a beginning. My problem is that I'm trying to fit God into linear terms and find it impossible. God is not a number line, but that's the closest thing that I can think of to logically compreahend the matter. He goes from negative infinitey to positive infinity. Right now it takes faith for me to believe this and will probably always be this way. I just find it cool to think about.
I think that I actually did okay on my physics writ today. All of the calculations were correct and everything. The one mistake that I made was that I forgot the SI units for frequency so I made it meters instead of Hz. Capt Morgan handed back the Econ writs today and I got a 91/100 on it. The class average was 82/100, so I was happy, but it was a pretty easy writ and I made a few stupid mistakes.
Since I currently have no love interests so right now I'm focused on Amaka and her's. It works out pretty well because I still feel all the excitment and stuff, but don't have the stress and worry or such emotional extremes. He's a nice guy. She's a nice girl. They'd be perfect together. It's funny because relationships here tend to revert back to grade school instead of becoming more grown-up and mature. I thought that I was the only one who acted and felt the way I did, but now I know that at least one person here is similar to me. Thanks Amaka. (ps Swimming Buggy)
Today at practice we pulled a 6k on the erg. My time was 26.01.9 minutes. I keep comparing myself with other girls on the team which is something I need to stop because it does not help me. Tomorrow we're back on the water doing drills and then the crew team is having a BBQ. Coach Hall said he want's to try and have one every Friday in order to promote bonding between the different teams, especially the guys and the girls. He said that success will be measured by the number of guys on the team that we know by name. This from the man who repeatedly tells us that boys are bad and to not have a boyfriend. Yesterday he told Jes and I that a lot of high up people are pushing for crew to become a corps squad sport. That has both positives and negatives. Positives are more authos (from the 79 we have right now to possibly 140), more funding by ODIA (new uniforms, sandels, other cool stuff), a little more respect in some ways, possibly guard authos (the coaches still would want us to drill, parade, do ccq, and all that bad stuff though. oh well), and team tables during mandatory meals. The bad would be tighter regulations controlled by ODIA and NCAA, possibly less money, a little respect could be lost in some ways, and who knows what else. All that aside, Coach Hall is talking to General Brooks, the Comm, about next fall. His latest and greatest idea is for us to practice in the morning at 5:30, have staybacks from breakfast, and not have a class first hour. Since practice would be done in the morning the afternoon would be free for drill :(, study hall, or weight lifting. Once again, that has both pro's and con's which I'm not going to get into.
Erich and I talked on IM tonight for a little while. He's doing well, but his computer just had everything erased by Goldcoats because he had to take it in for repair. I guess his disk space was all filled up or something. Anyway, it sucks.
The theme for madatory dinner tonight was Toga Party. My roommates and I all dressed up and I even had the wreath thing going on my head. It was fun to look stupid for a change. This web page got sent around the corps today so that everyone would know how to make a toga. Gotta love Thursday night Spirit Dinners.
Since I currently have no love interests so right now I'm focused on Amaka and her's. It works out pretty well because I still feel all the excitment and stuff, but don't have the stress and worry or such emotional extremes. He's a nice guy. She's a nice girl. They'd be perfect together. It's funny because relationships here tend to revert back to grade school instead of becoming more grown-up and mature. I thought that I was the only one who acted and felt the way I did, but now I know that at least one person here is similar to me. Thanks Amaka. (ps Swimming Buggy)
Today at practice we pulled a 6k on the erg. My time was 26.01.9 minutes. I keep comparing myself with other girls on the team which is something I need to stop because it does not help me. Tomorrow we're back on the water doing drills and then the crew team is having a BBQ. Coach Hall said he want's to try and have one every Friday in order to promote bonding between the different teams, especially the guys and the girls. He said that success will be measured by the number of guys on the team that we know by name. This from the man who repeatedly tells us that boys are bad and to not have a boyfriend. Yesterday he told Jes and I that a lot of high up people are pushing for crew to become a corps squad sport. That has both positives and negatives. Positives are more authos (from the 79 we have right now to possibly 140), more funding by ODIA (new uniforms, sandels, other cool stuff), a little more respect in some ways, possibly guard authos (the coaches still would want us to drill, parade, do ccq, and all that bad stuff though. oh well), and team tables during mandatory meals. The bad would be tighter regulations controlled by ODIA and NCAA, possibly less money, a little respect could be lost in some ways, and who knows what else. All that aside, Coach Hall is talking to General Brooks, the Comm, about next fall. His latest and greatest idea is for us to practice in the morning at 5:30, have staybacks from breakfast, and not have a class first hour. Since practice would be done in the morning the afternoon would be free for drill :(, study hall, or weight lifting. Once again, that has both pro's and con's which I'm not going to get into.
Erich and I talked on IM tonight for a little while. He's doing well, but his computer just had everything erased by Goldcoats because he had to take it in for repair. I guess his disk space was all filled up or something. Anyway, it sucks.
The theme for madatory dinner tonight was Toga Party. My roommates and I all dressed up and I even had the wreath thing going on my head. It was fun to look stupid for a change. This web page got sent around the corps today so that everyone would know how to make a toga. Gotta love Thursday night Spirit Dinners.
Thursday, September 05, 2002
I really should be in bed.
Kate go to bed.
Yes Ma'am!
That's Corporal to you 3rd class.
Corporal, may I make a correction?
Yes
Yes Corporal!
Now greet and get to bed.
Yes Corporal! Beat Holy Cross Corporal!
I'm in your company.
Corporal, may I make a correction?
Yes
Go Cowboys Corporal!
I'm in your plattoon.
Corporal, may I make a correction?
Yes
Make some noise Corporal!
Raise Hell! Now go to bed.
Wow! I'm one ate-up yuk, plus I'm a nerd and a tool. I just hazed myself. I should haze myself for hazing myself. It's catch-22. I'll just stop now.
Kate go to bed.
Yes Ma'am!
That's Corporal to you 3rd class.
Corporal, may I make a correction?
Yes
Yes Corporal!
Now greet and get to bed.
Yes Corporal! Beat Holy Cross Corporal!
I'm in your company.
Corporal, may I make a correction?
Yes
Go Cowboys Corporal!
I'm in your plattoon.
Corporal, may I make a correction?
Yes
Make some noise Corporal!
Raise Hell! Now go to bed.
Wow! I'm one ate-up yuk, plus I'm a nerd and a tool. I just hazed myself. I should haze myself for hazing myself. It's catch-22. I'll just stop now.
From 6pm until now I've managed to eat dinner, watch the simpsons, take my TA-50 back down to the trunk room, swim for 40 min, shower, pull a 500m peice on the erg, do my physics, put my latrine locker in BAG, put my drawers in BAG, shine and edge dress two pairs of boots and one pair of shoes, remake my bed with my comforter, talk to Jasmin for about 5 min when she came to visit, start to read my econ homework, record all the food I ate today and calculate the different things for my wellness project, send Bowlby and email with what we're doing for FCDT tomorrow morning, eat an orange and some marshmellow cups, and look at a few funny sites on the internet. It's been a busy night and I haven't done my calc, wellness, or econ homework to standard. Tomorrow morning I have a physics writ and I really need to do well on it, but I don't think I will.
Yumm, chocolate. If only it weren't so bad for you.
Yesterday Coach Hall told us that today we were going to row down to Bear Mountain Bridge and back. I was half looking forward to it and half dreading it. Annah asked me to get down to the boat house a little early so that she could work on timing in the rowing tanks. As it turned out Coach Hall had me ride in the launch today. He was going to switch me in half-way through, but since I ended up being the only person not rowing he didn't want to break up the boat unity on the long row so I didn't get to row at all. They rowed 8-10 miles total, got to turn around under Bear Mountain Bridge, and I missed out on a great workout and row:( Jess and I are supposed to go swimming later tonight if the pool is less crowded and she's supposed to really smoke me with this workout she has planed.
Tryouts are starting for the Combat Divers Qualification Course (CDQC) and today they had an informational meeting. Femals aren't allowed to go to the school, but my Buckner 2 squad leader went through it this past summer. When I heard tryouts annoucnced over the poop deck a few days ago I for some reason thought that it would be something Erich would do. Today I found out that I was right because as I was coming back from dinner he was going to the meeting and when he saw me he shouted hi and waved.
At lunch the First Captian announced the death of another '02 grad. He didn't say how he died or anything, just that he was in F2 last year. That's already the second death from that class since they've graduated. It's really sad. The first person died while he was duing a land navigation for the ranger school train up course.
Yesterday Coach Hall told us that today we were going to row down to Bear Mountain Bridge and back. I was half looking forward to it and half dreading it. Annah asked me to get down to the boat house a little early so that she could work on timing in the rowing tanks. As it turned out Coach Hall had me ride in the launch today. He was going to switch me in half-way through, but since I ended up being the only person not rowing he didn't want to break up the boat unity on the long row so I didn't get to row at all. They rowed 8-10 miles total, got to turn around under Bear Mountain Bridge, and I missed out on a great workout and row:( Jess and I are supposed to go swimming later tonight if the pool is less crowded and she's supposed to really smoke me with this workout she has planed.
Tryouts are starting for the Combat Divers Qualification Course (CDQC) and today they had an informational meeting. Femals aren't allowed to go to the school, but my Buckner 2 squad leader went through it this past summer. When I heard tryouts annoucnced over the poop deck a few days ago I for some reason thought that it would be something Erich would do. Today I found out that I was right because as I was coming back from dinner he was going to the meeting and when he saw me he shouted hi and waved.
At lunch the First Captian announced the death of another '02 grad. He didn't say how he died or anything, just that he was in F2 last year. That's already the second death from that class since they've graduated. It's really sad. The first person died while he was duing a land navigation for the ranger school train up course.
Wednesday, September 04, 2002
Yippee! SAMI on Saturday. That's what I love to do on saturday mornings. Get up early, get all dressed up in white over grey, stand at parade rest for 2 hours and have people come in my room and inspect everything little thing while checking for dust using a white glove. I bet there's still people out there who think they have an invasion of privacy case on their hands if their parents even peek into their rooms once in awhile. Everything here is a privalige, as a I learned last year. That includes eating, sleeping, talking, phone, computer, clothes, ect.
Thank you for tuning in to today's session of Yearling Bitterness Development Time (YBDT). This has been a presentation of BOHICA entertainment.
*BOHICA stands for Bend Over Here It Comes Again. A favorite motto of many a people during Buckner.*
Thank you for tuning in to today's session of Yearling Bitterness Development Time (YBDT). This has been a presentation of BOHICA entertainment.
*BOHICA stands for Bend Over Here It Comes Again. A favorite motto of many a people during Buckner.*
Tomorrow looks like a crappy day. Das ist poopy.
YAY!:) talked to matt on the phone tonight, but was kinda multi-tasking at the same time and everything that I thought of to tell him I realized that I had written down in here. oh well.
me no want to do homework. philosophy seems very dry right now. All were doing is analyzing arguments.
YAY!:) talked to matt on the phone tonight, but was kinda multi-tasking at the same time and everything that I thought of to tell him I realized that I had written down in here. oh well.
me no want to do homework. philosophy seems very dry right now. All were doing is analyzing arguments.
I am a real rebel here. I'm sitting at my desk watching Gilmore Girls while wearing a tank top, fake regulation shorts, Birkenstocks, and a green face masque. I don't think I have anything on that's actually issued or allowed and it feels great, as long as I don't get caught.
Tomorrow morning we have a TA-50 layout for some reason and so I just went down to the trunkroom to get all of my TA-50. I have most of it in my ruck sack except for my kevlar helmet and bed roll. While I was waiting for the elevator I was wearing the rucksack and leaning up against the wall. I guess I leaned back a little too far and the extra weight threw me off balance and I ended up sliding/falling down the wall until I was almost flat on my back. The rucksack prevented me from falling all the way so I was in a semi sitting/lying postition. It was rather funny, but I was really glad that no one was in the hallway right then to see it happen.
Today I finaly checked my mail after having my Mom remind me for at least a week to do it. Last time I checked my mail, which was probably 3 weeks ago, all I had was 2 bills and an advertisement for Shades Pizza. This time, however, the result was much better. I had letter from my Mom, my Grandma, Mrs. Newton, and Matt :) (sidenote: Alyson just walked in and burst out laughing when she saw my green face). Back to my mail. I also got the new Reader's Digest, a piece of mail addressed to Charlie Haltiwager with my PO Box address, and I found out my Dad had given me a subscription to Guideposts. It was like Christmas in September. Matt's letter was awesome. He said that he was at Elk Lake when he wrote it. That's so weird because that's where my whole extended family, except me of course, was on vacation this summer around the 4th of July.
Coach Hall had me as stroke as the varsity B boat today which was cool. I hope I stay in that position. Practice was kinda hard because we did two 20 min and one 15 min piece at 60% pressure and a goal stroke rate of 24. Last spring that would have been a breeze, but I'm rusty and out of shape and so it was pretty hard. My hands took a pretty hard beating and are already blister covered and starting to get ripped up. That didn't happen last year, but that was probably because we didn't jump right into things because everyone except Beth and I were just learning to row. I can't wait until I get back into the swing of things.
Tomorrow morning we have a TA-50 layout for some reason and so I just went down to the trunkroom to get all of my TA-50. I have most of it in my ruck sack except for my kevlar helmet and bed roll. While I was waiting for the elevator I was wearing the rucksack and leaning up against the wall. I guess I leaned back a little too far and the extra weight threw me off balance and I ended up sliding/falling down the wall until I was almost flat on my back. The rucksack prevented me from falling all the way so I was in a semi sitting/lying postition. It was rather funny, but I was really glad that no one was in the hallway right then to see it happen.
Today I finaly checked my mail after having my Mom remind me for at least a week to do it. Last time I checked my mail, which was probably 3 weeks ago, all I had was 2 bills and an advertisement for Shades Pizza. This time, however, the result was much better. I had letter from my Mom, my Grandma, Mrs. Newton, and Matt :) (sidenote: Alyson just walked in and burst out laughing when she saw my green face). Back to my mail. I also got the new Reader's Digest, a piece of mail addressed to Charlie Haltiwager with my PO Box address, and I found out my Dad had given me a subscription to Guideposts. It was like Christmas in September. Matt's letter was awesome. He said that he was at Elk Lake when he wrote it. That's so weird because that's where my whole extended family, except me of course, was on vacation this summer around the 4th of July.
Coach Hall had me as stroke as the varsity B boat today which was cool. I hope I stay in that position. Practice was kinda hard because we did two 20 min and one 15 min piece at 60% pressure and a goal stroke rate of 24. Last spring that would have been a breeze, but I'm rusty and out of shape and so it was pretty hard. My hands took a pretty hard beating and are already blister covered and starting to get ripped up. That didn't happen last year, but that was probably because we didn't jump right into things because everyone except Beth and I were just learning to row. I can't wait until I get back into the swing of things.
Tuesday, September 03, 2002
I've found that I like the techno remixs of some classical music. The pulsing beat mixed with the orchestra makes it come alive in a whole new way.
Tomorrow I have a wellness quiz and a writ (big quiz) in ecomomics and I am not properly prepared for either one and it's my own fault. Tonight instead of studying diligently I was easily distracted by this, music, friends, and all manner of other things. Tomorrow I'll have to go in and do my best knowing that next time I should buckle down and do my work.
Okay, this song I'm listening to is listed as techno, but it is definetly only opera. Somebody messed up.
Learn from history and past mistakes. Both yours and other peoples.
Tomorrow I have a wellness quiz and a writ (big quiz) in ecomomics and I am not properly prepared for either one and it's my own fault. Tonight instead of studying diligently I was easily distracted by this, music, friends, and all manner of other things. Tomorrow I'll have to go in and do my best knowing that next time I should buckle down and do my work.
Okay, this song I'm listening to is listed as techno, but it is definetly only opera. Somebody messed up.
Learn from history and past mistakes. Both yours and other peoples.
Homework and I are not agreeing. I really need to do it, but I can't seem to concentrate. The room seems unusualy noisy and distracting. Going to the library to study would be a good idea, but I don't think I'll be able to convince my body to get up and move that far.
This evening Ez came over and we ended up argueing over how carmel was pronounced. She says caramel and I say carmel. It was the stupidest thing, but we were both having fun making fun of each other and laughing about it. Just now she called me to tell me about how Isaac (the guy she likes) IM'd her today and then called her :)
Find something to smile about every day. Love God, love your family, and don't give a damn what anybody else thinks. Remember to have fun. Stop everything and take a every so often. Put everything into perspective and your problems seem a lot smaller and sometimes even stupid compared to what some people face. Make someone feel special brighten up your own day. You are not the center of the universe. Try something new once in a while. Dare to step out and make a fool of yourself. Expand your horizons. Don't be afraid of love or loss. Success is a long journey, failure is only a brief moment. Don't compare yourself to others, everybody's different. Find out who you are and be yourself. Be a servant to others. Never compramise who you are, what your morals are, or what you believe. One moment of happiness is not worth a lifetime of pain. Have a goal and work to achieve it. Reward yourself. Pray. Showing emotion is healthy and good for you. Find your niche. You are your own best friend and worst enemy. Life is an adventure, grab it by the balls.
This evening Ez came over and we ended up argueing over how carmel was pronounced. She says caramel and I say carmel. It was the stupidest thing, but we were both having fun making fun of each other and laughing about it. Just now she called me to tell me about how Isaac (the guy she likes) IM'd her today and then called her :)
Find something to smile about every day. Love God, love your family, and don't give a damn what anybody else thinks. Remember to have fun. Stop everything and take a every so often. Put everything into perspective and your problems seem a lot smaller and sometimes even stupid compared to what some people face. Make someone feel special brighten up your own day. You are not the center of the universe. Try something new once in a while. Dare to step out and make a fool of yourself. Expand your horizons. Don't be afraid of love or loss. Success is a long journey, failure is only a brief moment. Don't compare yourself to others, everybody's different. Find out who you are and be yourself. Be a servant to others. Never compramise who you are, what your morals are, or what you believe. One moment of happiness is not worth a lifetime of pain. Have a goal and work to achieve it. Reward yourself. Pray. Showing emotion is healthy and good for you. Find your niche. You are your own best friend and worst enemy. Life is an adventure, grab it by the balls.
I'm thinking about changing this blog somehow, but I'm not sure what I want to do yet. Right now I feel like I'm whining and complaining on it all the time and I want to change that. Listening to someone moan about their life all the time is not fun. I don't have a lot of time to spend on any changes, but if anyone has any suggestions let me know.
Monday, September 02, 2002
The BBQ yesterday went pretty well. My family started showing up around 2pm and Steph came by around 2:30. I played with my cousins all afternoon outside blowing bubbles, tossing around footballs, and playing with the dogs. Betsy took Steph and I to Dominoes Farms Petting Farm to visit the rabbits and see the new babies. They're Flemish Giants and the grown ones are huge, but the babies are really tiny still. The goats were really cute and there were a few kids (young goats) roaming around that we got to pet. Mark came by around 8 just as all of my family was leaving. We sat around and talked and then Liz came by around 11pm. It was nice to see all of them and talk, but I was getting really tired and almost falling asleep around midnight.
Today I wore my uniform to Church because my parents wanted me too. I could have said no, but they love it when I wear it and I wanted to make them happy. Looking back on it I shoudl have just said no because I really felt uncomfertable wearing it today. It was very embarresing at Church because for some reason I just broke down and started crying. I think it was because of pms, Jon dying and never getting a change to properly grieve and have closure, feeling like everybody was staring at me because I was in uniform, and feeling very unfeminine. It sounds weird, but I put on the uniform and it's like I have to be this certain person who never shows emotion, who no guy will look at and see as beautiful, and like I intimidate people. Then to make matters worse I was crying in uniform which made me feel like I was disgracing the uniform and losing the respect of the people there.
I want to be a female. I don't want to scare guys, I don't want them to tell me that I'm stronger than them or have bigger muscles then them. I to be seen as a beautiful, intelligent, nice person who can laugh, cry, dress up, dress down, and is attractive.
After Church Matt and I went out to lunch. We got subs from Jimmy Johns and then ended up going to a park, found a bench, ate our subs and talked.
When I got home Heidi took me to her new house to show me it. It's a pretty nice place.
Last night around 11pm Misha called me and asked if I wanted to do something today and so we deicided to go see a movie. He picked me up around 4pm and we went and saw My Big Fat Greek Wedding. It's a hillarious movie. I'd definetly recommend it. I thougt that it was really cool that even though we're just friends he still paid for the tickets. After the movie Misha and I drove downtown and walked around campus for a while while we talked. I asked him all these questions about what going to UM was like and he showed me all these different buildings and beautiful places. After a while we went to Starbucks and I bought a carmel frappacino. It's really bad for you, but it tastes great and I love it. Hanging out with Misha was a lot of fun. I hope that we can do it again sometime.
Today I wore my uniform to Church because my parents wanted me too. I could have said no, but they love it when I wear it and I wanted to make them happy. Looking back on it I shoudl have just said no because I really felt uncomfertable wearing it today. It was very embarresing at Church because for some reason I just broke down and started crying. I think it was because of pms, Jon dying and never getting a change to properly grieve and have closure, feeling like everybody was staring at me because I was in uniform, and feeling very unfeminine. It sounds weird, but I put on the uniform and it's like I have to be this certain person who never shows emotion, who no guy will look at and see as beautiful, and like I intimidate people. Then to make matters worse I was crying in uniform which made me feel like I was disgracing the uniform and losing the respect of the people there.
I want to be a female. I don't want to scare guys, I don't want them to tell me that I'm stronger than them or have bigger muscles then them. I to be seen as a beautiful, intelligent, nice person who can laugh, cry, dress up, dress down, and is attractive.
After Church Matt and I went out to lunch. We got subs from Jimmy Johns and then ended up going to a park, found a bench, ate our subs and talked.
When I got home Heidi took me to her new house to show me it. It's a pretty nice place.
Last night around 11pm Misha called me and asked if I wanted to do something today and so we deicided to go see a movie. He picked me up around 4pm and we went and saw My Big Fat Greek Wedding. It's a hillarious movie. I'd definetly recommend it. I thougt that it was really cool that even though we're just friends he still paid for the tickets. After the movie Misha and I drove downtown and walked around campus for a while while we talked. I asked him all these questions about what going to UM was like and he showed me all these different buildings and beautiful places. After a while we went to Starbucks and I bought a carmel frappacino. It's really bad for you, but it tastes great and I love it. Hanging out with Misha was a lot of fun. I hope that we can do it again sometime.
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