Running In The Snow

Yesterday morning when I woke up I knew that I needed to go running, but really didn't feel like it. I then remembered going for a run last winter with Misha and Steve around Misha's neighborhood after a heavy snowfall. Although there wasn't nearly as much snow on the ground yesterday I decided to see if Misha wanted to go for a run later since we had already planned on hanging out that evening. Originally we were going to catch an early evening showing of the movie Chicken Little, but ended up going to the 9 pm showing. Afterwords we went to his house and changed into running clothes. I spent a little while catching up with his parents and then we headed out for the run. We started out on the same route as last year, but ended up going a bit further down one road. Then it turned into us running some intervals up and down a hill in his neighborhood, followed by running up two huge hills. It was a good workout and quite enjoyable, which is odd because usually I don't like running very much. Since it was around midnight I'm sure the few people out driving gave us weird looks when they saw us out running. When we got back to his house his parents were still up and his Mom made us some popcorn. We took the popcorn to the basement and Misha popped in some home videos from 1990. There is an extremely cute one where his youngest sister, then around 2.5 years old, sings twinkle twinkle little star, but it comes out "tinkle tinkle little star." His youngest sister was watching the video with us and got back at him for showing it to me by showing another really cute video staring seven-year-old Misha. So cute :)

I Forgot To Title This One

After having graduated from OBC I am at home again not knowing what the future holds. At the moment I'm not particularly concerned about it because it still seems a long way off, but it's really only next week that I will be reporting to my first unit. I don't even know if they will be deployed yet, and the phone calls, searching on the web, and trying to get information out of people I know who might know something have left me only with possible predictions of what lies ahead.

I have all these ideas of what life will be like and what I will be like in a few years. As I've discovered,my dreams and reality don't actually coincide very often. I'm basically still the same person I was back in high school, but with a little more education and training. Darstic changes as a person are not my style. My TAC officer from OBC called me his most consistant lieutenant, and also told me that he thought of me as the "slow and steady one who wins the race." He noted that I did well, third academically in my class, but managed to fly under the radar the whole time because I never got in any trouble and I didn't particulary stand out in any way. Perhaps I'm a bit too consistant. I would like to improve in many areas.

While I'm sitting here typing this I'm thinking about how much it annoys me that I don't have a very good grammar base and usually my spelling is less than sub-par. Even though this really frustrates me and I berate myself for it, I don't do anything to actually change it or try and work on solving the problem. That seems to be my answer to things in life. I am very hard on myself when I don't feel I measure up, which happens fairly often in my mind, yet I don't put a lot of effort into changing the situation. My lack of effort hinders any improvment on my part.

Now to completely switch topics...for Thanksgiving my Grandma, Aunt Kathy, Aunt Barb and Cory, Heidi, and Uncle Gary and his family all came over. Betsy and Mark didn't attend since they are still on their honeymoon. Betsy did call twice, however, because she wanted directions to a mall near where they are staying. Why they want to go to a mall the day after Thanksgiving I do not know. Personally, that is the one day of the year that I try and avoid shopping at all costs even though there are so many sales and give aways. The long lines and crowds drive me away.

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Happy Thanksgiving:)

Wedding

Yesterday my sister Betsy was married to Mark. I don't think I've mentioned before in here that her wedding was this weekend because it never sank in for me until I got home on Thursday and was finally confronted with all the wedding preperations. Her wedding was amazing and by far the best that I've ever been to, and I'm not just saying that because I'm her sister. Heidi was her maid of honor and I was a bridesmaid. She had a total of 5 bridesmaids, while Mark had four groomsmen.

While the wedding and reception were incredible, I was completely drained by the end of it even though I only arrived home the two nights before the wedding. I think I came home already fairly emotionally drained due to having just graduated from MIOBC, having to say goodbye to my friends and not knowing when I'd see them again, moving, preparing to go to my first unit, and not knowing when exactly I'll be deployed. Combine that with the wedding, tons of people, tons of questions, and for some reason feeling like I was losing my sister even though I know that in reality I was gaining a brother-in-law (who is an awesome guy, I just don't know him very well), and by the end all I wanted to do was get away from everything and everyone to have some time to recover. I'm doing much better now having stayed at home all day without even having changed out of my pj's. I don't remember the last time I stayed in my pj's all day because usually I feel the need to clean up and get in some real clothes by the end of the day. Today, however, having taken a long bath and shower last night after the wedding, I've been fine wearing my pj's all day.

Stupid Fire Alarm

I was awoken at 4am this morning by the third fire alarm that has gone off in the BOQs since Saturday morning. Grr.... There it goes again.

Graduation

Tomorrow morning at 0900 I graduate from MIOBC. While the graduation has nowhere near the level of anticipation and excitment of my West Point graduation, it has brought about a tiny bit of emotion on my part. Mainly the emotion is due to having to say goodbye to friends, some of whom I've known for four years, and some who I have only known for four months. I'll also miss AZ in a tiny way, though it is tiny. Once the weather started cooling down a bit to where I could get away with wearing a sweatshirt at night I started to enjoy AZ much more, especially the evening and night sky. Having grown up in the tree-covered north, it has been a new experiance to be able to see for miles with out any trees to get in the way. The sky also appears much larger here since the terrain is so open around here. The mountains are different than the ones at West Point, and I will miss them in their own way. I'll also miss the comfort of having some sort of daily routine, although it took me about a month to settle in here and I'm sure I'll eventually settle into a new one where ever I end up next.

I've spent the past two weeks outprocessing and spending time with friends. Last week on Tuesday my class went bowling together during the day, and then on t Wednesday Rachel, Vivian, Natalie and I went to see the Moscow Ballet perform the Nutcracker. Over the weekend I baked treats for my class at the Munsey's house as well as Vivian and Natalie's apartment. On Monday I went on a tour of Kartchner Caverns with Rachel and her parents, and then Kate and Jordan threw a graduation dinner for me at Jared's house and Jared grilled steak, salmon, and vegetables for us. (On a side note, what is the normal way to core a head of lettuce? Jordan and I think the smashing method is normal, but Kate, Jared, and Matt(?) had never heard of it before and thought we were crazy.)

As a graduation gift Jordan gave me, among other things, a little black book. It actualy has sheets of graph paper in it instead of address lines, but she told me that it was the only little black book she could find and said that after I write down someone it in, I can call her and Kate up and keep them informed. Somehow I can't see myself being able to actually write very many, if any, names in it, although had she given it to me at the beginning of OBC I'd have one name in it already, although it would be crossed out by now. Yes, I did go on a few dates with a guy here, but it was only a short time before we both agreed that we were not the right person for each other.

On that note, it's getting late and I have to get up ealier tomorrow than I have in about 2.5 weeks (6am). As I've been alluding to, life's been pretty easy here the past two weeks.

A Listening Ear

Friend: things are not that hot with my GF
Me: i'm sorry to hear that
Me: how long have you two been together?
Friend: her mom got lung cancer and i cannot find way to help her by being thousands of miles away
Friend: about a year now
Me: sometimes the best help is just being a listening ear and nothing more
Me: guys tend to want to solve problems, but girls often just want a place to vent and aren't necessarily looking for answers and solutions
Friend: i am trying but that is painful for me
Friend: and difficult
Friend: must be harder for her i know
Me: i don't know her situation, and don't know what she needs or wants, but having gone through cancer with both my sisters in the past few years, and now my cousin, what i needed was just someone to talk to and listen to me.  i hope things get better for both of you, and that her mom beats the cancer.    

Deep Thoughts Are Okay

Tonight I had another deep conversation with Misha ranging from our respective current crush drama, to why I don’t like swearing, to if terrorists should be viewed as humans, to being deployed and worst case scenarios. It’s nice to have a friend like him who I feel free to engage in conversation with while doing deep thinking, instead of being told that I’m thinking too much again. Plus, he’s the one who usually starts the topic of conversation. We often start off with opposing views, but by the end of the conversation we have more of an understanding of the other’s viewpoint, as well as more of an understanding of our own point of view. That is, except when it comes to relationship issues because we are both clueless in that area but do the best to give each other advice.

P.S. I was arguing that terrorists should still be viewed as humans.

Navy Better Be Scared

In case anyone hasn't heard, Army beat Air Force on Saturday. Woohoo!

This was the most intimidating picture I could find on my computer. Oh well. 

Productive Friday

Friday I was actually fairly productive, which is unusual when I have half a day off. At 9 am there was an AAR for JICTC, but that only lasted an hour. After that the TAC team talked to us briefly about what’s happening next week, gave us a safety briefing, and then released us. I had an appointment at 2 pm to finish the paperwork for my DITY move, so I turned down Andrea’s offer to go run intervals because I didn’t want to have to change out of my uniform only to change back into it later. Instead I went back to my room and read one of the books that I recently ordered, The Family That Nobody Wanted. I’ve actually read it a few times years ago, but I like it and wanted to read it again. At 2 pm I went and completed the DITY move stuff and then finished all the out-processing that I could do this week. After that I drove to Gas City and get my car washed. When I got back to the BOQs one of my friends was in the parking lot unloading stuff from his car because he was about to go get it weighed for his DITY move. I had thought about getting my car weighed today, but felt too lazy until I saw him getting ready to do it and so I decided to get it out of the way as well. The process was a lot easier and faster that I thought, and now all I have to do is go back and weigh it again after I’ve finished loading everything into my car. Since I hadn’t exercised yet my friend asked if I wanted to go on a run later. That was something else I knew I needed to do, but had been putting off. We ended up running up Reservoir Hill, but then walked down it. I ran it up and down it doing a longer route last Saturday, but when we stopped on the top and then started walking down my dislike for running won out over the need to run. Later in the night I once again remembered why I’m not a video game person as I played fairly poorly on two Xbox games. I am however in love with a tiny dog named Fury. Normally I don’t like tiny dogs, but this one was adorable, especially when he fell asleep on my lap for about an hour.

Almost Done

Only out processing is left :)

Dreading Shopping

Tomorrow Rachel and I are driving up to Tucson to go shopping in the malls there.  She sent me the links to the two malls and so I started looking online at the stores in order to try and find clothes ahead of time that I am interested in looking at.  My enthusiasm for the shopping trip is quickly decreasing, as well as my excitement about going home.  

I do need some new clothes, and I do like going home and seeing my friends and family, but both things truthfully make me feelâ€?.well, fat.  The clothes always seem made for stick-limbed, skinny people and don’t fit me correctly.  My arms are too big, my shoulders too wide, or my hips are too large.  Around most of my friends who are girls I feel like a big, stocky football player because they are a few inches to a head shorter and smaller than me.  I am the shortest person in my family and at home I feel like a short, stocky football player when I stand next to everyone.  It really got to me over Columbus Day when I was home for the weekend, as it does every time I go home and am around my tall, skinny family.  

Halfway Done

I’m now half-way done with the exercise at the Joint Intelligence Combat Training Center (JICTC).  So far it hasn’t been too bad, even a little fun.  Being on the swing shift from 3:30 pm until midnight is definitely better than being on the day shift.  I am able to sleep in, be productive during the day, be motivated to work out, and time goes by faster at night in the TOC.  

I can’t believe I’m graduating OBC in two weeks.  The weeks have flown by even though some of the days felt like the time was low-crawling by.  (I think Rachel would give me a Tool award for that analogy).  I may even miss OBC, but that is only because where I’m heading I probably won’t know anybody, I won’t have the luxury of getting 7 hours of sleep a night, a work day that ends at 5 pm, and weekends off.  

I’ve talked to Jordan and am going to stay in her apartment in TX until I deploy.  Her husband is already going to be deployed when I get there, and she won’t be there for at least another month, so she was happy to have someone there to watch over it.  If I don’t end up deploying I can take a little more time finding a good place of my own instead of rushing into something because I need somewhere to live.