Thursday, March 23, 2006

Vague Post

I want to ask why, but I'm tired of asking why.  I want to just accept and be at peace, but can't seem to allow that to happen because so many questions and doubts arise in my mind.  I feel so confused.  Have I made too much out of it, or is there actually something there? 
 
Still waiting on the email from Heidi.  It'd be very,  very, very helpful at the moment. 

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Johnny Appleseed

Oh, the Lord's been good to me.
And so I thank the Lord
For giving me the things I need:
The sun, the rain and the appleseed;
Oh, the Lord's been good to me.

-The Johnny Appleseed Song

This was the song that I used to sing for grace before my apple juice and graham crackers in the church nursery and later in preschool. For some reason I remember those graham crackers tasting better than any other ones I’ve had elsewhere, but that is besides the point. The song popped into my head today after I realized that I once again was in a bad mood, most likely feeling sorry for myself, and needed an attitude change. Funny how those days tend to coincide with the days where I choose to sleep in rather than work out, which leads to me sleeping in later than planned and having to rush through my morning prayer time, if I actually get up in time to have a prayer time. If only my work out partner (who will remain nameless, but who’s name starts with a J and ends with an O-R-D-A-N), and I weren’t so good at convincing one another that we should go back to bed and sleep some days. Okay, so it’s not really Jordan’s fault that I don’t get in a good prayer time, but it’s
so much easier to lay the blame on someone else besides myself. The point is that when I don’t start the day by spending time, quality time that is, with God, it’s usually not a great day for me. Back to the song, I started singing it while thinking of the things I have to be thankful about. As I thanked God for different things my attitude did start to change. Once again I learned a lesson about being thankful in all circumstances.

Monday, March 06, 2006

Package From Home :)

Thank you so much for the package Mom and Dad :) The beef jerky is the perfect kind, and the brownies are being eaten by my TOC. I gave up sweets for Lent but had two brownies today anyway. One of the NCOs knew I gave up sweets for Lent and he caught me eating the brownie and harped on me about it. It was a good lesson for me to learn.

I also recieved a letter from Adam today. I feel like such a schmuck. He's going through Ranger school right now and still managed to write and send a letter to me, and I haven't written to him at all. My excuse was that by the time the letter reached him he'd be in the next phase and so the address would no longer be any good. That excuse was shot today. Tonight I think I'll try and write a letter and send it off tomorrow. I wonder if Charlie has started Ranger school yet. If not, he should be soon.

Yesterday I had another day of rest, and as usual it was awesome. God is really at work here.