8:02.6 too slow for me.
why can't i break 8, is it my fate?
Every body else is doing well,
why can't i be like them and do swell?
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll sit down here and die.

oh so close, i think i've got it.
1000 meters to go, almost there.
1:58, 1:59, still doing well, 1:59.5, it's getting close.
I can make it, I'll break it. 2:00... NO!!!
all I want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die.

I didn't make it, I didn't break it.
This was the worst, why can't I do it,
be like the other girls and go through it?
my body hurts, i don't want to move
i have a big lump in my throat
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down her and die.

The pain in my throat is worse, i need water
i try not to cry, people here would wonder why
soldiers don't cry, but i want too.
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die

a girl gives me a sports drink, but i need water
the water doesn't help, my chest now hurts.
i take another drink, no better.
why don't soldiers cry? i don't anymore
is that good or is that bad?
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die

i go back to the room
people are still rowing, getting good times
will I lose my seat, thrown out on my feet?
i sit down and look around
the pain's still there
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die.

i look at the orange drink and start to think
someone asks me to move
he lifts weights like a feather
why can't i do that? is it because i'm fat?
maybe i should lose weight, get into better shape.
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die.

the orange drink looks like jello, i take a sip
katie says it doesn't taste that great
i don't drink anymore, throw it out back at my room.
my throat still hurts so i try lying down
it doesn't help.
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die.

my thoughts wander, but a line keeps running through my head
would i be better off if i were dead?
Hell no, but i still feel like crap.
i look around, they're almost done
bet the scores are better than mine,
i started out first, but now all the time i'm almost last
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die.

I see them look at another girl, she's at 2:04
they think she's fat and laugh at her behind her back
do they do that to me?
i try to me nice, but end up quiet like a bunch of mice
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die.

my thoughts turn to guys, why do they do that?
why do guys like the petite, shorter, outgoing girls
the ones who always have smiles on their faces?
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die.

why not me, am i too scary?
is it because i'm quiet, or fat, or in the army?
should i plaster a smile to my face and dress in lace?
that's not me. i want to be who i am.
my feelings show on my face, my throat still hurts, i think i might try
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die.

I bottle up my emotions and release them in an explosion
that's not good, but what else is there to do?
soldiers don't cry here, am i a soldier?
my name is Kate, not 4th class, not CDT PFC, not x57182, not plebe
I feel so small and scared.
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die.

i walk back to my room
the cold air feels good on my throat
it doesn't hurt as much, but the pain is still there deep within
if i could just break 8:00.
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die.
all i want to do is cry, maybe i'll just sit down here and die.