This morning after crew practice I went to take a shower and as I was entering the shower room I saw a cockroach on the wall. I was kinda startled at first and then decided to just leave it alone because I didn't feel like dealing with it. Then, while I was taking my shower I got an idea and tried to think of an upperclass female that I didn't like. Cpl Cousinao came to mind because of what she did to Kelly. When I was through with my shower I took one of her sandles (they were civilian ones at that) and used them to smash the roach. Unfortunatly none of the body stuck to the sandal, but it still was nice to know that I was getting revenge on an upperclassmen. Simple pleasures in life. Ez can't believe I actually did it and neither can I. It's so not me.

Jasmin says that they've been planning for today since 1988. I feel a little jipped since in past years it been only for the corps, but this year it was only for firsties and selected cadets because of all the special guests. Jasmin went to the banquet and came back with a ton of cool stuff. Then we went with Ez and watched the fireworks in Pebbels room. They were awesome.

Happy Founders Day. To celebrate it I started my dayday off by getting up at 5:10 for crew practice. We were on the water by 6 and it was raining pretty hard. By 7 it was only a drizzle, but we were pretty wet. Gortex saved me once again. After practice Mindy, Laura and I tried to go to Grant to get donoughts, but it wasn't open yet, so I came back to the room and ate the rest of the cinimmion rolls. yummy. I watched some tv, went back to sleep till 1, watched some more tv, and talked to Erich on IM a little.

Right now he has 13 stress fractures in his legs. I don't understand how he can even walk. He said he'll still be a church tomorrow though. He's one amazing guy. He asked me if I wanted to play starcraft with him and some of him friends, but I said that I didn't know how and that I'd learn sometime. I will.

Around 4, Ez and two her other friends, and I went swimming. It was fun. I taught her how to do summersaults in the water, dive, and do other fun stuff. We swam untill about 5:30. Now I'm back here starving and about to watch some tv.

I talked to Jake on thursday night. I tried to avoid the old stupid stuff we used to talk about. He's doing well, I think. Whatever. On to TV.

Today Doug (Sgt Holt) recognized me. It seems like when I wish for something it happens pretty soon afterword most of the time. Now if I could just meet the right guy. I have practice tomorrow morning at 5:30 so I'm trying to get to bed early. The joy of crew.

Yippee!!! I just got another package from home. It had fruit snacks, hot chocolate, gummi bears, granola bars, swiffers, some clothes for spring break, cinnimon rolls for jasmin and I and another one for Fritzs, (my Mom is smart!), the DVD Rat Race (THANK YOU!), my goggles for swimming, and newspapers. Okay, so the newspapers are packing material, but my Mom knows I like to read them too. Thank you Mom and Dad! I might watch the DVD tonight.

Ez moved out of the room this afternoon. It's not so much that once she's out she becomes the outsider, it's just that we won't be around each other almost 24-7 so we won't be as much a part of each others lives, therefore we won't be as close. It's sad.

I asked Matt last night what I should do about Will. He said that I should flat out tell him that I'm not interested. Easier said than done. At least I know that I'm not alone. I was talking to Steph today after math and mentioned how the class was okay except for him. She said that she doesn't like him either and doesnt' know of any girl that does feel comfortable around him and what he needs is a good beat down. I agree, but kinda think that's a bit severe. Of course, I did almost elbow him in the stomach the last time he came up to me and put his hands on my shoulders.

I called my Mom today to talk and to find out if she wanted me to go buy one of the coins they're minting here. Thankfully, she said she's ordering one online. Me = Lazy, so I'm glad I don't have to make the trip down to Ike and stand in line tomorrow morning. I do have crew practice at 5:30 AM, but that's different.
Anyway, I'm talking to my Mom more. I think I communicate with her better over the phone or on IM, but I'm more comfortable talking to my dad in person.

Ez just stopped by to get a cable for her computer and to have a cinnimon roll. (I can't spell worth crap, as pointed out by Mark in 8th grade). Jasmin's singing at Carnigie Hall tonight so I'm alone here till around midnight. My first detail beast platoon is getting together at 7 to have a reunion and eat pizza, and then at 7:45 my beast squad is going to Sgt Holt's room to watch a movie and eat more junk food. The good old days of 2 Ligit 2 Quit!

Kelly's gone. I got back from chemistry just in time to see her rolling her suitcase down the hallway with her team leader. Before I left for class I went to her room to say goodbye but she wasn't there so I left a note. When I saw her walking away I wanted to yell down the hallway to her, but I couldn't, so I just started following. I guess she heard me because she turned around and came back to me. I gave her a hug and wished I could say something, but her team leader was right there and I was already taking a chance by falling out in the hallways with the hug. I think Kelly understood, and I don't think her team leader cared that I did.

Ez is moving into the other room this weekend. She starts sleeping there tonight because plebe girls aren't allowed to sleep in a room by themselves. It's a sad day, two friends leaving, but at least one is just down the hall. It won't be the same. It never is. Once you're out of the room you become the outsider. Maybe that won't happen this time, it'd be nice if it didn't. Sad day.

YAY! I got to go out on the water today. I also realized how out of shape I really am. Hopefully I recover from this winter really quickly. Spring break and 5 hours of practice a day is going to help a lot.

Kelly is leaving some time tomorrow morning. I can't believe it's actually happening. Today CPL Cousineo hazed her out on the wall because she didn't greet her. Personaly, I think that's a little uncalled for since Kelly doesn't give a damn about that stuff anymore. Some girl, who was a friend of Kelly's, went to Kelly last night and told her that she was bringing her up on honor charges. Ez, Jasmin and I were all like WTF? Just leave her alone and let her leave in peace. Is that too hard?

I'm eating vitamin C drops right now like they're candy. During beast Steph and I bought cherry vitamin drops because they tasted like candy and they were one of the few things that we were actually allowed to have. Eating those was the highlight of some of my days. Amazing how things have changed.

The press is starting to become visable again becuase of Founders Day this weekend. It seems like everywhere I go there's some crew with their camera filming.

It was really nice out today. Not a cloud was in the sky, the temp was in the 60's, and the water was very calm. To top it all off THERE'S LESS THAN A WEEK TILL PROMOTION! YAY!

I just want Will to leave me alone. That's all I can. Why can't he just leave me alone? Maybe I'm making too much of it, but he really makes me uncomfortable.

I'M DONE WITH GYMNASTICS!YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm really happy right now because I PASSED with a C-. YAY!!!!!!!

This morning it's so nice out. The sun is shinning, the sky is blue, and since it rained last night, everything has a fresh, clean feel and look. If it warms up a little bit more it's going to be a beautiful spring day.

It's also the last day of gymnastics. YAY! If I can score one more point today I can get a C- in the class. That's a really sucky grade, but it's better than failing and having to go to STAP this summer. I can't wait till swimming starts next week. Ez thinks I'll get an A in that class. I hope so.

Today I have a recitation in english. I have it about 1/2 done and am going to work on it after I finish typing this and then again after the class with the 1st SGT this afternoon. It's a pretty easy one this time.

Room check:) That was fast. CPL Black just stuck her head in and then closed the door. Last night around 12:10 a firstie came around to make sure we were all in bed (bedtimes in college make me laugh). Anyway, we keep the door locked at night for saftey. There've been too many stories of people waking up and seeing someone in their room staring at then while they slept. The firstie didn't know that and so he was knocking on the door and trying to open it. Finally I got up and opened it so he could see in and he wanted to know why it was locked. Even though I'd only been in bed for about 8 min my brain had already shut down, so Ez had to answer the question. It's funny, I go to a school where some people in my class are almost 24, but they still make us have lights out at 11:30 and be in bed by 12:00, and question us when we lock our doors. I think at a normal college it'd be more likely for them to question us if our door wasn't locked.

Time to go memorize the poem and then hopefully get a quick nap in before class.

The water level is finally high enough for us to row, but I still didn't get to go out today. Four people didn't show up to practice, so only one boat could go out. I went and lifted weights with Anna and Tia. I mentioned Will to Anna because she went to the prep school with him. She said to stay as far away from him as possible and not to talk to him. I really don't like this. I hope that he doesn't try to be my board partner tomorrow.

Today in math class my teacher told us to get new partners for the board problems. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Will get up and head in my direction so I desperatly started looking around for a different person while avoiding his direction. It didn't work. He came over and stood right behind me so when I finally turned around I couldn't avoid him, and everybody else around me was already paired up. It was not a happy class. I'm usually not this way with people, but he scares me. I get a bad vibe about him, and some things he's said to me really haven't helped. I want to keep as far away from him as possible.

Woohoo! Done with the chem lab early so now I have a few min back in the room before my next class. Today is pretty gray and drizzly out, which I hope means that the water level is rising. Leah emailed me and said that she's going running tomorrow at 5:25 and then doing some push ups and stuff. I really should go, but I'm a big fan of this thing called sleep. Tough choice.

The Calling rules! I love their music.

Today after english Erich came up from behind me and said hi. We walked back to together, not talking of course. Only 9 more days! It's weird how the best things happen when you least expect them. Like the person you like calling you, a package from home, an unexpected visitor (the good kind), and just stuff like that. Not that any of that has happend to me recently, but seeing Erich today was nice.

At crew practice today the water was as smooth as glass. It was a perfect day to row, but the water level was still to low. I really wanted to row today. The water is never like that here, it's always really rough. Tomorrow we're going straight to the erg room to work out beause Coach Hall is pretty sure the water level will be even lower. Hopefully it'll be high enough by Thursday.

I asked Meghan today if she knew Erich. She said she didn't and that she was just courious. That's fine with me, but a little dissapointing. Oh well.

A sequal to the Matrix is coming out. The original one is awesome. I hope they don't totally screw up with this one, but it doesn't look as good.

For dinner today I had to borrow Beth's sweatshirt and Leah's sweatpants. Hopefully nobody realized that my last name isn't Lachner.

Jake's back online. I haven't talked to him and arent' sure if I even want to. I doubt he'll ever IM me. Maybe I should just let the whole thing go and forget about him. That sounds mean, but I think that's what he wants. He's confusing.

Time for homework and probably smallville later.

I just got back from a class on Camp Buckner. It doesn't sound all that bad, better than right now. I can't wait to be promoted. Only 10 more days! Every time I walk in to the mess hall now i think about how next thursday at dinner I'll be able to turn to my friends and talk to them, not greet people, and RELAX. Augh! Why is time going so slow?

The closer spring break is, the more I wish I were going home. I'm looking forward to going to Virginia Beach with the crew team, but every so often I forget that I am and I think about how I'll be home in two weeks. Then I realize I won't be home for another 3 months and I get sad. Everything has it's price.

Yesterday after practice Meghan came up to me and asked if my parents were going on spring break. Then she asked if the guy that came to plebe parent weekend was my boyfriend. I of course said no, we're just pretty close, he's like a brother. She then asked "so who's this Erich guy?" I think that's kinda odd, out of the blue, and I'm thinking way too much about it. It's just that I only mentioned his name once last week and I haven't talked about Matt in who knows how long. Why did she ask those questions? It'd be cool if he asked about me, but I don't think he did, and I don't know if they have any connection.

Erich wasn't at Church on Sunday:( He emailed me in the afternoon and said that he'd set his alarm for the wrong 9 o'clock and had slept through Church, woken up at 11 and said "nuts." I hadn't asked him why he wasn't there. I think it's cool he told me why.

My cold is doing a lot better. I only have a runny nose now and an occasional cough.

Dan came by last night to help me out with CS. In class he can't stay awake, but last night he was bouncing all over my room. It was funny.

Since I haven't studied for english yet, I should go do that.

I have a lot of stuff to say, but no time to say it. Homework is frying my brain. My CS project sucks @ss right now. I wouldn't be suprised if my teacher told me to redo it or something.

I bought new sandals today. I love them. They are really comfertable. Yay for new sandals :)

Kelly is outprocessing:( I don't want Ez to switch rooms. We're getting along really well. It's rare when we don't stay up late into the night talking. Right now she has a cold, I gave it to her, so we're not going to talk tonight, which is good because we'll both get more sleep.

Time to quickly pretend to finish homework and get to bed.

Today was a pretty good day even though it was a school day. I only had one class and it was last hour, so I went back to bed after breakfast and didnt' get up untill about an hour before lunch formation. I finally started working on my part of the math project that O'Malley wants to have done tomorrow. He's really a really hooah guy.

SGT Kwon took Ez and I swimming this afternoon after classes. I have swimming next round and so I wanted to get a head start. I learned how to do the bob-and-travel and was actually okay at it. Kwon was really nice and helpful, especailly for Ez. It's hard to believe that he's only two years older than us. Ez thinks he's hot. I guess now that she's mentioned it I can kinda see it. For the most part I'm still stuck in the "I'm a young stupid plebe who is at the bottom of the food chain" mode and don't look at upperclassmen and think anything about them except for avoiding them as much as possible. Next year it'll be different when we're allowed to date upperclassmen and are on first name basis with them.

I talked to Erich a tiny bit on IM last night. He had a paper to write for today that he'd forgotten about so he couldn't really talk. I told him about how I'd been sick this week and he asked me if I was still going to be able to go to Church on Sunday. I said yes and asked if he would. He said that he'd of course be there.

Dan offered to help me with CS sometime this weekend. He's a really funny (as in joking) guy and seems like he'd be a nice friend.

Ez is watching O'Brother Where Art Tho so I'm gonna go watch it now.

Long showers are nice. I just took a really nice long one. It was probably around 15 min. I just stood there and reflected on my life. When my sisters were my age they were still seniors in high school. I miss high school sometimes and tend to think of it as easier than what life is like now. It's not really fair to compare them; they are two very different things with their own set of hardships. Life now is probably easier.

Why do I always feel like I have to be more mature and grown-up? I was like that at a young age. When I was six I thought that I was too old for children's church. In three and a half years from now I'm going to be a Second LT. I'll be in charge of a plattoon of 30 or so soldiers. I'm going to be responsible for them! That's kinda scary for me to think about right now. I can't imagine how I'll be prepared for that.

If Matt were here he'd probably tell me to stop thinking so much.

Less than two weeks till promotion! I can't belive that it's almost here. Just yesterday I was graduating from high school and going out with my friends every night. Life has changed so much.

I wonder if anyone thinks "wow! it's ******. she's an awesome person," or if anyone looks up to me. If I met myself, would I think that? I guess if they did think that, it'd just go to show that they don't know me well enough. I don't mean that in a bad way, it's just everyone has their flaws and sometimes what you imagine a person to be isn't who they really are. I'm just me. I want my little cousin's to be able to look up to me. I love them a ton. Yesterday I got to talk to them on the phone. I didn't know what to say. With kids I'm better actually playing and interacting in person with them than talking to them.

Even though I want to sit, think, and write more, I need to do some work.

I just got back from crew practice. I thought it'd be warm out since online it said that the temp was 59 Degrees. Yeah right. It was freezing! Luckily we just got the boat down to the dock and sat it for a while because it was broken and then took it back to the boat house.

Woohoo! Drake just brought me a box from home with cookies, gummie bears, fruit snacks, vitamin C drops, hand warmers, calvin and hobbes comics and newspapers in it. Thank you mommy:)

I haven't talked to Erich in a few days. Right now I don't really care because I have other things on my mind. I guess I was wrong about everything. I don't know why I got so happy about him.

Right now I'm kinda sick and so I'm not at crew practice. It's nice to have a day off and just relax and drink tea (thanks Jasmin).

Kelly offically resigned yesterday. It's hard to believe that she'll be gone in just a few days. I guess it's for the best for her. It was that or be kicked outta here.

I have so many projects and papers to write and they're all due on the 11th and the 12th. This weekend is going to suck, especially since there's school on Saturday. I only have one class :) but it's last hour:(

Back to homework, or something.

MY MOUSE SUCKS!

06 March 2002:



Herbert asked Karli out in an email. She didn't respond to it so the next day in class he came up to her and said "I'll take that as a no" to her great relief. She now tries her best to avoid him because anytime she accidenlty makes eye contact with him or anything he comes over in a flash.



Jackie sadly learns that Brandon likes another girl.



Kristen is awaiting the final word of whether she'll be allowed to stay at the Academy or not. It does not look good for her.



Karli catches a cold after spending two hours outside on the river freezing. She also realizes that she does not understand guys at all, doesn't really care about them at the moment, and just wants to go to sleep for a long time and not worry about anything.